How Things Change

Rode my bike to the tennis courts this morning and got whistled at. Yes, that's right! And it occurred to me that at sixteen being whistled at would have made me irritated. At twenty two I would have yelled 'fuck off'' but now that I'm in my 30's and have two kids with the stomach to prove it, all I could say was 'thank you!'

Bummer.

Current song addiction-- Pressure Nadia Ali (give it 40 sec)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y31umxjp1mQ&ob=av2n

Had the realization that Lucas needs to get his POV in this book some more. Wish I knew what the hell he was thinking.

Character Songs-- Jack

This is a big book for Jack and he's been giving me some trouble because of it. Every time I hear an early Matchbox Twenty song I think of him.

More specifically I would say Four to the Floor by Starsailor reminds me a lot of Jack.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d0votplOm8E&ob=av2n

Character Songs-- Rachel

Bruce Springstein's song 'I'm on Fire' has always been one of my favorites but Bat for Lashes has done a cover of the song that is really creepy, messed up and shows a desperate longing. That's Rachel alright. I've got a bad desire, Oh, I'm on fire...sometimes it's like someone took a knife, baby, edgy and dull and cut a six inch valley through the middle of my soul.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q--r4i3Q2gI

Character Songs-- Valerie

Poor Valerie. Her song is Rhiannon's Only Girl in the World. I'm deep into the second book and I can tell you, *mild spoiler alert* she'd like it if she felt like she was the only one he'd ever love and the only one who knows what's in his heart. She's a bit cheesed off at the moment.

The big question? Who is he?

Character Songs-- Lucas

Songs

I'm a big believer that music not only inspires creativity but can be essential. For me, if I hear a certain song that resonates with my characters, I feel like I am instantly in their head and know what they know...and what they want. So who is getting what song at the moment?

Lucas has two songs right now:

 Depeche Mode Home

Here is a song from the wrong side of town
Where I'm bound to the ground by the loneliest sound
And it pounds from within and is pinning me down

Here is a page from the emptiest stage
A cage or the heaviest cross ever made
A gauge of the deadliest trap ever laid

And I thank you for bringing me here
For showing me home
For singing these tears
Finally I've found that I belong here

The heat and the sickliest sweet smelling sheets
That cling to the backs of my knees and my feet
Well I'm drowning in time to a desperate beat

And I thank you for bringing me here
For showing me home
For singing these tears
Finally I've found that I belong

Feels like home
I should have known
From my first breath

God send the only true friend I call mine
Pretend that I'll make amends the next time
Befriend the glorious end of the line

And I thank you for bringing me here
For showing me home
For singing these tears
Finally I've found that I belong here

Kate Nash  Nicest Thing

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6mIXrF9N_5s&feature=fvst

This song is pretty sad and it's more the feel of the song that makes me think of Lucas, the lyrics probably attribute too much emotion to him at the moment and don't apply as much as I might want them to. So I'll just include the video for it and if you want to hear the song, check it out.

Whereas Home captures his longing and desire to belong. Plus it's all gloomy and tortured. And I love that! lol.